ED BUDDIES
Friends in weird places
This shit is like a magnet. We recognize each other a mile away blindfolded. Are ur eyes sunken in in a very specific kinda way? Got that gray skin chic? Bony ass fingers? Body shaped like a freakshow? Dry ass hair? Looking kinda dead? Fidgeting or wandering around in a grocery store? Got a swollen neck? Scabbed over hands? Yeah I know you. And you probably clocked me a while back too.
I made my first ED friend in 2012. Or, I guess that's inaccurate. My friend and I developed our eds in tandem. We spent all our time talking about it together, comparing weights (unfair of me, being 5 inches taller), talking about calories, foods, going on walks together, getting snarky at concerned teaches (ah to be a teen... no thanks). We were living the ed life. We sometimes went to get ice cream together and it was absolute hell if ones ice cream happened to be smaller than the others.
Nowadays I'm a little more sane about it. I like to tell myself that. I have ED friends, we talk about it all the time, compare weights, talk about calories, foods... Oh shit. It's not really all that different now is it? Doesn't feel competitive now tho. It sorta did back then. Back then it felt like I couldn't recover or I'd lose.
But regardless. I would rather do this with friends than without. So I cope.
Friends in weird places
This shit is like a magnet. We recognize each other a mile away blindfolded. Are ur eyes sunken in in a very specific kinda way? Got that gray skin chic? Bony ass fingers? Body shaped like a freakshow? Dry ass hair? Looking kinda dead? Fidgeting or wandering around in a grocery store? Got a swollen neck? Scabbed over hands? Yeah I know you. And you probably clocked me a while back too.
I made my first ED friend in 2012. Or, I guess that's inaccurate. My friend and I developed our eds in tandem. We spent all our time talking about it together, comparing weights (unfair of me, being 5 inches taller), talking about calories, foods, going on walks together, getting snarky at concerned teaches (ah to be a teen... no thanks). We were living the ed life. We sometimes went to get ice cream together and it was absolute hell if ones ice cream happened to be smaller than the others.
Nowadays I'm a little more sane about it. I like to tell myself that. I have ED friends, we talk about it all the time, compare weights, talk about calories, foods... Oh shit. It's not really all that different now is it? Doesn't feel competitive now tho. It sorta did back then. Back then it felt like I couldn't recover or I'd lose.
But regardless. I would rather do this with friends than without. So I cope.