I'M SCARY
"Why are you so nervous around me?"
Majorly bummed out by how everyone seems to be scared of me. I get it but I don't get it but I get it. I just wanna be the person everyone's comfortable around. Fuck, I wanna be the person SOMEONE's comfortable around. But people visibly tense up when I look at them sometimes. I'm unnerving somehow. People can't let their guard down around me. I can use this for good, when it means protecting my friends and stuff. People don't really fuck with me, ever. But I just wanna feel ... good. to someone. And not like some scary fucking psychopath who's Not To Be Trusted and shit.
It's too late for almost everyone I know. The only person I have left who's not scared of me or uncomfortable around me is my babe. I have to protect that with all I got. But I can't do that if I don't know why people are scared of me in the first place. I'm hard to read. How I speak can come across as aggressive. I'm over-confident. My body language? Maybe it's that.
My ex told me he was scared of me stabbing him in his sleep. I had never threatened him in any type of way. I have never hurt anyone I've been with, or threatened to do so. I asked him why he thought I was going to do something like that, he said it was just something about my vibe. My other ex just casually dropped on me that they were scared of me and "lucky to have me on their side", cool I guess, but I couldn't trust them after hearing that. All my friends acknowledge that I'm intimidating. My sister's friends don't fuck with her bc she's MY sister
I have to figure this out. I don't like how this makes me feel.
"Why are you so nervous around me?"
Majorly bummed out by how everyone seems to be scared of me. I get it but I don't get it but I get it. I just wanna be the person everyone's comfortable around. Fuck, I wanna be the person SOMEONE's comfortable around. But people visibly tense up when I look at them sometimes. I'm unnerving somehow. People can't let their guard down around me. I can use this for good, when it means protecting my friends and stuff. People don't really fuck with me, ever. But I just wanna feel ... good. to someone. And not like some scary fucking psychopath who's Not To Be Trusted and shit.
It's too late for almost everyone I know. The only person I have left who's not scared of me or uncomfortable around me is my babe. I have to protect that with all I got. But I can't do that if I don't know why people are scared of me in the first place. I'm hard to read. How I speak can come across as aggressive. I'm over-confident. My body language? Maybe it's that.
My ex told me he was scared of me stabbing him in his sleep. I had never threatened him in any type of way. I have never hurt anyone I've been with, or threatened to do so. I asked him why he thought I was going to do something like that, he said it was just something about my vibe. My other ex just casually dropped on me that they were scared of me and "lucky to have me on their side", cool I guess, but I couldn't trust them after hearing that. All my friends acknowledge that I'm intimidating. My sister's friends don't fuck with her bc she's MY sister
I have to figure this out. I don't like how this makes me feel.